52 Weeks of Positiveness #14

This is what this topic is all about

to stay  p o s i t i v e 

 

Which is not an easy thing to do. 

It's been a hard week with so many overtime work. body is so friggin' tired.

got scolded by my mum for forgetting to wash the chilly she brought me before i eat it ( been eating the dirty chillies for almost a century x,x . actually it's been 8 months ).

no news from the prospect future work ( hiks ).

borrowed 3 books from library 2 weeks ago but haven't got time to read it.

my mom is going to Hongkong in the end of April and i am soooo jhealhouseeee. how i miss travelling so much.

so much rain and it's getting colder huuu.

 

All those little things that seems easy but has connection all in all and made up a big ball of stressful in my head.hhhhh. But i keep on trying to be positive and be happy. I still have husband who loves me, Mom got angry because she was only worried as hell of my health because i live too far from her, many overtime means plus moneyyy, if we no go france maybe i can go Balatonsound on July, well that's worth it tho'. And about the books, i said to myself that the library here is very flexible so i can use all mytime to read as i like it. And rain,.... oh rain... just be patient, summer is coming.

Mom is living her life so i shoud be happy for her. Also, she travels a lot and no need to work because her hardwork in the past has been paid off now.

So, am i doing it allright? 

There were many days when i feel so sad and lonely and just plain bored living here. I did cry too. But i think this is a process i must face , the risk i must take as a consequence of my choice. I do hope all these things will make me a stronger person and especially a less selfish person because i need to think about my husband feeling as well. It will do no good for him seeing me sad and lonely. And i can wait a bit longer staying here for him because this is his hometown and before we move to somewhere with a highspeed of work vibe, it is good to enjoy the laydown vibe here in Ajka , right?

Keeping a positive mind over all the stressful things around you is hard but it doesn't mean it is impossible to do. Cry if you have too, but don't forget to pray and ask for a strength because God didn't promise it would be easy, but He promised He would stay and it would be worth it.